Soon-To-Be, originally uploaded by Kate Chan.

Sometimes miracles just keep happening.

It’s a miracle to me that the Chicklet is ours. The hoops, hurdles, and tons of love that have surrounded her in her short little lifetime and have brought her safely in to our arms is a story that will be thought about and prayed for every day of our lives.

She. Is. Perfect.

And then one day last October, my husband and I started to talk about how she would be such a great big sister to someone… such a great aunt!.. such a wonderful life companion for anyone lucky enough to have her. And how we knew that being an aunt or a sibling was out of the question.

We’d tried for almost 10 years to have a child. Adoption was *always* part of our plan – not our “solution” to not being able to have biological children. We spoke on our first day about adoption. (I know… not a common first date topic.. but when you know, you know.) At the time, my husband had work for Child Protective Services and I was an inner-city elementary school teacher. We knew the need to adoptive families was there. We weren’t ready to be that family just yet, but we both knew that we would adopt – God willing – someday.

And then in November, I started to feel sick. And it wasn’t typical sick. It was… different.

The night before waking so ill, I had laid in bed and watched my Love and the Chicklet cuddled in to one another and snoring softly together. I could NOT believe how perfect and blessed my life had become. I have a lot of moments like that. (I hope you all do as well.)

The next morning, while my Love was brushing his teeth, I asked. “Hey honey, what if I don’t have the stomach flu…….what if I’m pregnant?”

I thought he was going to choked on his toothpaste. His shocked face mirrored my shocked thought process. I really didn’t know. He didn’t know.

Huh. What if?

And miracles do just keep happening!
I AM pregnant!!!!!!!

The mere words bring tears to my eyes today whereas before they were words that I didn’t think would tumble out of my mouth again.

So sometime in July, our little wish that the Chicklet grow up as someone’s big sister will come true.

And we will soon be a Family of Four.

The miracles of life!

May many happy small – and large – miracles come to you and yours as well!

I love the fiiiiiiiiiiiissssssshhhh!

Okay people… I just had to do it. I had to show you this girl-hair-challenge-mom’s photo of her two loves enjoying the fish at the Seattle Aquarium. I don’t think I’ve ever laughed so hard at an aquarium in my life – OH, how the Chicklet LOVED it! We spent our Moon Festival weekend out and about in Seattle and boy, did we have fun.

I have a couple of posts in the works – Wild Rice with Wild Mushrooms, etc and a few baking ones too. This week I chatted away on the phone while making Pumpkin-Apple muffins and completely forgot to add the baking powder or baking soda. Umm… yea. I made some unbelievably delicious Pumpkin-Apple blobs, though. LOL. Once these are gone, I’ll make a “real” batch with ALL of the ingredients and take some pictures for you.

I’m working on a list of easy-peasy school night dinners that we’ve been getting together too. So far, we are back to menu planning – saving money, time and hunger meltdowns (mine… not the Chicklet’s), etc. It’s been fun to develop the menu ideas with my Love who truly is the better cook between the two of us. I just enjoy it more. See? There is a reason why we commit to our partners after all! (KIDDING!)

Okay… I’m off to pick up Zoe. I can’t even describe how much I miss her during the day sometimes. Leaving work to go pick her up is almost as adrenaline pumping as seeing her. It means I know I only have a few short miles to drive before she will crawl up in to my arms and say “Ooooooooooooooooooomma!!” (or “Mama”) with glee.

Oh! I love them so!

Happy mid-week – sorry I missed the Wednesday photo post… but here she is. (Bad pigtails and all!)

And… hey… if you have any “Girl-Hair” tips, feel free to leave them in the comments. My poor child is growing up with a Girl-Hair-Challenged mom. It’s sad! 🙂


Wordless Wednesday

I love that bed-head stare.

Happy 1st Birthday/Tol, Baby!

Happy 1st Birthday/Tol, Baby!, originally uploaded by Kate Chan.

Don’t you love the look on her face?
She’s watching a bird fly overhead.
(She’s wearing the hanbok sent with her from her Korean foster mother.)

We spent this Saturday with family celebrating birthdays. Both Zoe and her cousin, J, were born on May 16 – 12 years apart. We celebrated her first birthday with a Tol Party. We had a few friends and family over for a mid-day barbeque. it was great fun. Even the birthday girl laughed her way through the three hour party until she finally sat still and decided maybe she did, indeed, want to take a nap. (Although it was only a 30 minute one much to my chagrin. *I* was tired and we had not only the clean up but then our nephews party that night too!)

We had a gluten-free affair (minus the cake which we got at the Korean bakery). We served jap chae (Korean sweet potato starch noodles) that I made (thus gluten-free), kal bi (Korean BBQ Short Ribs), Korean chicken wings, kim chi (2 varieties – one spicy radish and the other a cool kelp noodle salad), fresh fruit (strawberries, pears, oranges, mandarins, apples, etc) and plenty of rice cakes (about 12 different varieties).

For Zoe’s toljabee (a ceremony where the child is escorted about a table by their father to select two items that represent their future), she chose a plastic knife which means she will be a warrior (think modern day courageous person) and a good chef. She also chose the money (indicating wealth). My husband was a tad disappointed. He had stacked the odds in hopes that she would select something to indicate that she would be a scholar by placing not only a book (although, I later pointed out that he had used my Moleskin sketchbook which would mean that she would become an artist…LOL) but he also placed a ruler on the table (mathematics/science/architecture, etc) as well. While the ceremony was fun, we both know that we just want her to be happy, healthy and whole.

Some people think that I was sad to not have a bite of her birthday cake, but really, I didn’t want it nor do I need it. I’m happy to report that since starting my mindful eating and joining the gym, I’ve dropped two pant sizes. Not too shabby, but I’m not stopping here. My intent is to live a healthier, fuller, more active life. Weight loss, while fabulous and totally necessary for me, is the secondary objective. Having a long life with Zoe during which we can have a million adventures is my primary goal. Next year, I hope to be able to run a 5K. I don’t quite know how I shall train for it with a baby in tow, but I’ll figure something out. If I can’t run it, then she and I will definitely walk it together. We could probably walk that 5k this year… hmm… maybe I will have to figure out the running part. Any tips, people? All ideas welcome!

We hope you are all having a wonderful mid-May and finding ways to celebrate yourselves and each day as well. Seek out an adventure – cook something new! What are your taste buds craving?

Right now… I think I’ll make some three bean salad and chomp on some mini-cucumbers with homemade garlic hummus. Life is good. Don’t you think?

Happy Gluten-Free Life and Adventures, everyone!

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